Why denial of the ego is denial of the creator

If our goal is to experience a state of enlightenment, we first need to understand a few things about the ego.

As long as there is an experience, the ego is always there, too. That is because the ego is the vantage point from which we perceive our creation. There is but one ego, because there is only one creator, yet that ego can appear in an infinite number of different forms. It is experienced as myself, and reflected back to me as others. As if I were standing in a hall of mirrors.

The reason for this is that I, as the creator, can experience myself as anything, and whatever I perceive myself to be, it is always I – it is always the same ego. In one life I may be the husband, in another the wife, in yet another the son, in yet another the grandmother, in yet another someone entirely unrelated to that family, in yet another a being that is not even from earth, in yet another a sun or a galaxy. Doesn’t matter what it is, it is always the same creator. It is always I. The all are the one, and the one is the all.

This ego inevitably fulfills a certain role within all of creation, within the collective consciousness of a population, within the realm of souls, within the universe, whatever you want to call it. It is always intertwined with all of creation, and as that ego changes, the whole of creation – the reflection – changes with it. Whether it appears as a major change right in your face, or an imperceptible, minor change somewhere far away in space or time – everything always influences everything else to some degree.

With that established, it should be obvious that we can never, ever get rid of the ego. It is impossible to kill or dissolve the ego because creation is always there in some form. Without creation, there would be no experience whatsoever. The creator, being all that is – the one infinite potential, the unmanifest, the one without face or name – cannot experience the truth of itself. It can only ever experience what it is not. But that is fine, because the creator can imagine being anything. Everything, really. And so it creates worlds and universes, and imagines itself as all the different aspects of its creation, always experiencing being something, and viewing the rest of creation from its vantage point.

This is the reason why the creator is real, but all of creation is an illusion. Creation is an imagination of the creator, who experiences being something that it really isn’t, and feels as if it is this something while its creation is being imagined. Just like we experience being a figure in a dream, but once we wake up, we realize that it was all just imagination.

So if there is always an ego, how can I become enlightened?

The answer is: I cannot. The I, the ego, can never become enlightened. It is impossible, because the ego is always something. It is always this and not that, so there is always an inside and an outside. That causes pressure and resistance, and depending on how much pressure and resistance there is, there is a certain feeling. A lot of resistance means the ego is very small and contracted. That creates a lot of pressure, which feels really bad. Very little resistance means the ego is large and expanded. Consequently, there is only very little pressure, and that feels really good.

Of course, anything inbetween is possible, and most of us switch from one state to another all the time, always reacting to what is seemingly perceived “outside” of us. If it is something we like, we open up. We expand, because we welcome that which we experience, and that feels great. Just imagine doing something or being with someone that you really like, and how that feels. If, on the other hand, it is something we don’t like, we close down. We contract, because we do not welcome that which we perceive, and that feels bad. Imagine having to do something or be with someone that you totally dislike, and how that feels.

So why must there always be these feelings? Why is that expansion and contraction thing always going on?

Because the ego always is something. It can never, ever be everything, because then it would be the creator, and creation would instantly disappear. Remember, the creator cannot experience itself. It is everything, yet appears to be nothing. So whether the ego incorporates only a speck of dust or encompasses vast galaxies, whether it exists as something for a mere blink of an eye or for many eons, it is always this and not that. There is always something outside of it, which excerts a certain pressure on it.

In the case of human beings, this pressure translates into a feeling, and the changing of that pressure, which is always going on to some degree, is what we call e-motion: Energy in motion. It is the energy that shifts, and changes its form, as the ego expands and contracts based on what it imagines to encounter in its world.

That leads us to a more appropriate question: Not “How can I become enlightened?” but “How can enlightenment be experienced?”

The answer to that question is as simple as it is ingenious. We need to stop being something. We must stop identifying with the ever-present ego. We must not believe that we are that which we imagine ourselves to be, unless, of course, we like what we experience.

If we enjoy what we are, why would we want to not be that? Perhaps all that needs to be done to no longer feel bad, unhappy or dissatisfied is expand? Maybe we could just stop to resist the people or things in our life that we dislike? Why not allow them to be whatever they are and see what happens? Why not allow the ego to be whatever it is, and don't judge it, hate it, reject it, or deny it. That way, we stop being resistance and become allowance.

And with resistance gone, the things we don’t like must disappear as well, because pressure needs both sides to exist – from the inside out and from the outside in. If the resistance is stopped, it will be found that the pressure simply vanishes. What happened? 

Expansion happened. The ego has grown. A bigger ego? Isn’t that bad? Not if it feels better than a small ego. For most of us, that’s enough. That’s why law of attraction teachings are so popular in this day and age. We just imagine what we like, so we can open up, expand, and feel better in whatever situation we created.

For some of us, however, that is not enough. If there is an inherent pull towards what is called enlightenment, then we really need to stop being something. We can no longer identify with the human being that we perceive ourselves to be, or the soul, or whatever. All identification must cease.

How do we do that?

Start to ask the right question!

Which one is that?

That’s not the one, but maybe that question will be answered in a future blog article.

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